I have spent the majority of January thinking, anticipating, dreaming about running 100 miles in 2016. I have also spent most of January resting my body from my race in December. I’ve been running less and biking more, watch–less and watching more. I’m not lacking motivation. I’m not lacking heart. I’m finding joy in the rest and excitement as I look forward to training. I am looking forward to the journey to 100 miles.
To tell you the truth I’m longing. . .
longing for the darkness
longing for the elevation
longing for the wilderness
longing for the cold
longing for the heat
longing for the sunset
longing for the sunrise
longing for the feeling of exhaustion
longing for the feeling of elation
. . . for my heart to beat because of fear, for my heart to beat because I’m utterly tired, for my heart to beat because I AM A L I V E! I’m anticipating that running 100 miles will bring all these longings and more. It will not be easy. I may want to quit. BUT ‘easy’ and ‘quitting’ do not change the longing.
It was when I was happiest that I longed most. . . The sweetest think in all my life has been the longing. . . to find the place where all the beauty came from.
C. S. Lewis