Monthly Archives: January 2014

Random and Related

Sometimes, blogging for me is a place to log thoughts that are repeated in different ways in my head. It gives me a place to go back to when I need to encourage myself or remind myself. This week in TN we have had more cold, cold air. This is also my ‘down’ week for training. I am taking advantage of both. I have had more time to think. Here are three random quotes that are related somehow in my head. They are meant-ful (Full of meaning and meant for me and you.)

1. This first quote is from a great article in the most current issue of Runner’s World Magazine. I love this quote because it’s scary in the dark. AND, sometimes, you only have the ‘demons’ to remind you ‘why in the world’ you are running a race, with a headlamp in the first place.

In some ways, I do need pain and I look forward to it. I love those long, dark nights alone in the middle of nowhere racing with a headlamp–having only my demons to spur me on. There’s growth in discomfort, and that is why I like “ultra” anything SO MUCH. -Meredith (Chiles) Dolhare from Runner’s World February 2014 **

**oddly enough, the article is titled, ONE TOUGH MOTHER. This is kind of a shout out to my running group, FMR (Fast Mother Runners)

2. This second quote is from a song, titled STARS. It is from SoCal (Southern California) band called Switchfoot. They are surfers. They write some good music. Lately, with the cold. I have been missing my ‘roots’. I’m a native of SoCal. There are times I miss it a lot. Jus’ been missing it lately. . . .

Suddenly, the infinite and penitent begin to look like home. -Switchfoot from their song STARS

3. This third quote is a deep one. This is about life. This is about ‘faith walking’, ‘pressing in’, ‘confessing’. I am challenged by this. GREATLY challenged. Do I believe it? I want to believe it without any doubt in my mind that part of me has to do something to earn this truth. Guys, this is tough stuff. The perspective of this quote in Jesus talking to me, talking to you.

We’ll work through this. I’m not letting you go in the meantime. Oh. . . , we’ll get there. I’ll finish it. I started it. I’ll be faithful to finish. Don’t give up! Keep walking!! Keep PRESSING IN!! Keep confessing! But, don’t give up. I’ll heal you. I won’t let you go. There is no one who can condemn you. I don’t. And, if I don’t, no one can. Who will even bring a charge against you? YOU ARE MINE! What court could they possibly charge you in? Everything’s mine! -Matt Chandler (Pastor at the Village Church)


Looking Ahead, Current Workouts and Observations

Current stats: Still 42 years old 🙂 155 lbs.

Upcoming races: Black Warrior 50K on February 15th and Lake Martin 50 mile on March 29th. I am on week 15 of a 24 week training plan.

Workouts as a glance: last week 5-5-9-24-5 (33 trail miles), this week 5-7-18-10-7 (23 trail miles) next week 6-4-6-14-10 (24 trail miles)

Weight Room: (2 times a week) squats, dead lifts, push ups, plie squats, lat pulldowns, tricep press, core work, stretching!


1. Work Hard!! Work hard at running easy on easy days. Push on the hard days and prepare for the run by eating well, sleeping well. Work hard to REST hard on the rest days. For me this means, taking a nap, reading, knitting, writing, putting my legs up every chance I get. On rest days I also remember to drink plenty of water and eat a variety of good food.

In my opinion, you cannot buy your way to the body you want and no one can sell the product that is going to give you the body you want. It takes a commitment of hard work, easy days and rest days.

2. Lately, I have been running A LOT, for me. I ran an easy 10 miler (1h 40 min) this week the day after I ran a very, mentally difficult 18 miler on the trail (4h 1min). I thought to myself, I’m at a place where the 10 miles I just ran had nothing to do with what I ate last night, or what I will eat for lunch, or what I’ll eat for dinner or whether or not I’ll eat ice cream later. This was a small victory for me. I took time to reflect on that the rest of the day.

3. There is no just or only. . . check out this quote and click on the link provided for the full quote. It is worth copying and hanging up, as a reminder to lose the just and only.

You’ve never heard Usain Bolt saying he only runs 100 meters. And with good reason. Every single run, no matter how far, has its own unique challenges. The shorter the run, the harder you push. Next time you run, don’t fall into the ‘just’ or ‘only’ trap. There’s plenty of people who’d be over the moon to be doing what you are doing. You should be one of them.-There’s no ‘Just’ or ‘Only’ 

4. Geoff Roes’ article in irunfar on Nutrition. Here is a small quote from his article. It is totally worth, following the link and reading the full article on Nutrition.

To some degree, I think there is a time and a place for all foods in our diets. Sure, I can agree that kale has more nutritional value, than a donut, but sometimes there is more to what makes a food ‘good’ and what makes a food ‘bad’ than simply nutritional value.

Essentially what I’m driving at here is that I think there is a lot more to our overall health and well being than what foods we eat or don’t eat. Our lifestyle, our non-dietary habits, and so many other factors contribute so much to our overall health, and in many cases these things can have a more significant impact on our health than the foods we consume in those moments.-Geoff Roes, “Nutrition”

Eating. . . my first 50K

(Readers–This post was originally penned on 2/9/13. The “race” was my first 50K, Stump Jump October 2012. I am not sure why I never posted it. I think at the time, it was hard to talk about these things. These struggles are on-going, but I am happy to say that on most days, I do not have to do battle.) I would love to hear your comments. Give me some feedback.


“I’m done starving myself. . . “

Going into this race, I kept hearing, “you’ve got to eat” and “you’re not eating enough”. To someone with a disordered way of eating, this causes anxiety, uncertainty. When I am told by someone, who is obviously fit, that ‘I need to eat more’? Do they see me? I mean, “do they see me” in a way I do not see myself?

You see. . .

I’ve been starving myself

I’ve been starving my kids

I’ve been starving my husband

I’ve been starving my soul!

When I starve myself, physically,

I cannot possibly give my husband and kids what they need from my emotionally.

I cannot possibly experience the peace or deep security Jesus has for me.

I cannot possibly express the peace and the comfort Jesus has for me to give     to others.

I believe in order to run a 50K, eating is ABSOLUTELY necessary to finish at all, but in life I believe eating will destroy me, change me and comfort me? In this race, my mind was essential.

When you starve your brain long enough, the truth is impossible to distinguish.  . . I become lost. .  . It becomes starved until it dies to truth.  Without enough food in this race, I could not have tapped into the vast power of my mind and Spirit. Eating/fueling taught me how vital good eating is for the use of my mind and body on a daily basis.

I’m a work in progress. I know that I will last forever. I’m living in the ‘now ‘AND the ‘not yet’. I will have days of personal triumph over my ‘demons’, and days of utter exhaustion as I ‘battle’. I’m not alone. I never am. I never will be. I am chosen. I am loved. I am strong. I am beautiful.